Bluebell Star

Hey babes,

It's been a loong time since I posted and you know what? A lot has gone on. But I can't say too much right now. Because a lot is still going on. This post is just to let you know that's I'm alive, and that in probably a couple days I'm going to post a one shot. I'm really proud of it, and I really hope you like it. 







Love ya, 
Bluebell

Hola

Well, I just recently got back from my vacation in St. Lucia. I'm pretty tan. I also had some interesting....adventures I should say. Let's just say, there were too many British and French people, I couldn't help myself. Haha. SO yeah, that was pretty fun. My family is being a bitch though. 'Why didn't you do this, why aren't you as good as your YOUNGER brother, why aren't you this, why don't you listen to us?' and blah blah blah. Frankly, I don't give a shit what they think. I'm leaving soon, and when I do, I probably am never coming back. Screw this. I don't need this bullshit anymore than I need a growth spurt. Oh, but the horrors of a teenage girl. Things with Fennel, not progressing. And I lied. I'm not getting over him. I need a new life. I need to start over. My friend, is moving away. Which really, really sucks. Because she is one of those friends who won't judge you for what you've done, because she's heard it all. She may be very blunt, and very harsh, but that's her. I don't know. This just hasn't been a good year. Fennel, I don't know. Like, I've talked to him a little more, but never like, a full conversation. I don't know if I'd call it love, but it's a really high form of like. lol.  Anyway, I've been teaching myself to play guitar, and a little bit of drums. I've also been writing a story, based on my life, with different people. It's pretty good, if I do say so myself. I love writing, it's one of my talents, if I could name one.  Well, I have to go do some stuff. Blehh. 


Adios, muchachos

I'm really upset. I know this is going to sound so cliche and so overdramatic but Fennel got a girlfriend. And needless to say, she is not me. I guess I am not pretty/popular enough. Okay, I know people are going to boo and throw stuff. But I don't know, it left my gut ripped to pieces. I've liked him for so long, and I thought he was beginning to like me too! I mean he told some girl a while ago that I was hott, and then that time that he helped pick up my shit. I mean come on. Guys suck. To all fathers out there, I hope you never let your daughters near them. And it doesn't help that my fuckhead english teacher got me grounded. I mean, I was called to guidance right? My english teacher thinks that I cut her class. WHICH I DIDN'T. I was at guidance. But does she check before she calls my mom to tell her I skipped? No. Because she a fucking crazy ass bitch. I hate her. And not to mention, JT, from Degrassi, died. Okay the last one is a bit minor, but I loved JT. This weekend just SUCKED in general. Literally, the worst weekend of my life. And, a friend of mine is really, really sick. She might have a brain tumor in her head. She's getting tests done to see if it's cancerous and to see which stage it's in.  I just really want her to get well, but things are looking on the downside, and obviously that's not good. I just want her to get well. ='[





Bye, 

Bluebell

Oh my god?! Is that a survey?!

Hello.

I've been having a really bad day. I mean, I really don't like Fir as much anymore, I like Fennel so much better. He's just so much nicer and I've actually talked to him. On my way to Spanish I almost tripped and dropped my play binder [which is basically my life] and he picked it up for me and told me that it was really cool that I was in the play and that he might go see it. Which made me reallyhappy but I haven't talked to him since then and he may not even like me. Myabe that was just his niceness. Which makes me like him so much more. Bleh. The dilemmas of a teenage girl. It really sucks. >.< Anyway, I have to go because the librarian is giving me really dirty looks. I don't want to be kicked out. But yeah. I just wanted update because I haven't updated in a loong time. 




Bye, Bye 
Bluebell

Hola! 

I'm skipping Spanish right now, because really, I'm not in the mood to deal with the teacher why I'm not handing in my project. It's so stupid. We had to create this extravagant poster on commands and how we're selling a certain product. Its Spanish not art class. We took a unit test on the commands, let's move on, not drag it for forever. My school is like, retarded. Anything can be provided for entertainment is blocked. Seriously, if you block it we will all find ways to get to YouTube, or google videos and images. There really is no point to block it. Anyway, I have to do my homework for the next period because if I don't and I skip 2 periods, Mr.Assistant Principal will shoot me. Oh well. Anyway. The following people I am going to talk about will be called Fennel and Fer. I am crushing big time on both of them [not to worry, they are both guys]. I really like Fer, he's really cute and seems really nice, but I have no chance with him because he's with someone else. Fennel I have actually talked to and had a conversation with. But I don't know I think he likes someone else and I think the only reason he talked to me was because I was the only one around and I guess he just always has to talk to someone. But I do have to say his music taste is great. Both of theirs is. I'm pretty emotionally unavailable right now because I am so confused. The male species is so annoying. Which is what we vented out in mentor. All the girl had to say what they felt was annoying about guys or whatever. There's a lot of things. The fact that they don't even know what they want. You can't be their friend if you're hott because they want some ass. You can't be fat or they'll never give you a second glance. They treat you differently in front of your friends and can't dance. Dancing is a big thing. If you're going to stand there and just sway, don't bother dancing. And girls almost never ask their boyfriends 'Do I look fat' or 'Do I look good'. I can honestly say that I have never asked that question to my past boyfriends. Bleh. 


The bell is about to ring and I got to go. 


Later, 
Bluebell

Hola, loves. 

I'm back from rehearsal. La la la la la. I'm in the Wizard of Oz, and since I am just a little frosh, I have little tiny roles. Such as girl's choir [offstage], Ozian [even though I'm too tall, but whatever] and a flying monkey [my favorite]. Rehearsal is brutal because girl's choir sings A LOT. It's so frustrating though sometimes because other people sometimes don't hit the note [myself included] and our teacher get's upset. But whatever. 

Okay, this is totally random but whatever.  I have a dear friend who I love a lot. Let's call her Lule. Well, Lule has been really asshole-ish to me lately. it really get's on my nerves. It's like she always say things like if we're doing something and someone says "I bet one of you will do _____" she turns to me and says really loudly "BLUBELL..." it just really fucking pisses me off. She's always making fun of me and she just doesn't get that I hate it. She always acts like she's better than everybody else. Don't get me wrong, I love her but it's just getting really annoying and I hate it. She needs to get over herself just a tiny bit. And if I ever say one thing bad about her, and she KNOWS it's true, she get's all pissy and is mad at me. Talk about hypocrite! Jesus Christ. Aghh. She needs to stop because one day I'm going to get fed up and just blow up at her. I won't care who's staring. If I try to talk to her she's just like "I'm just kidding...stop making it into such a big deal". God. Sorry if you don't find it offensive, but after the first 500 times, it gets really, really annoying. Whatever. Anyway, today in English, we had a 'socratic seminar' which is basically us being bored out of our minds attempting to have a serious conversation. But this was cool. Because the whole discussion was on whether or not we are born with knowing what's right from wrong, if there truly is morality, stuff like that. Oh, and there was also some major, major, Bush bashing. Anyway. Here is my belief. We are born with a blank slate, and we are taught what's right from wrong. There is no morality, good and bad, good and evil. There is just a point of view. And that Bush will go down as the worst president in history. Seriously, Iraq is just a big fucking joke. He's sending more troops in, about 20,000 and will soon start drafting people in March. This is complete bullshit. BULLSHIT. Okay, we should have never been in there the first place. Seriously as soon as we found out there were not an nuclear weapons of mass destruction, we should have gotten our asses out of there. No, Bush decides "Hey, why don't we take down Saddam because my father couldn't and I want to show him that I'm a good son" Hmm? I'll tell you why. IT'S NONE OF OUR FUCKING BUSINESS HOW HE RUNS THE COUNTRY. Sure, we feel horrible that he treats his citizens like shit, but we should be concerned more with problems in our own country. Seriously.  The U.S. and South Africa are the only countries where not everybody has health insurance. In every single other country everybody is guaranteed health insurance. Also, what about the poverty, huh? We have people on the streets of Manhatten, who can't afford to live in an actual home, but they have to settle for a blanket or a cardboad box. No, let's focus on another country who, sure have a horrible person in power. But it's not our business. And, we made everything so much worse. We can't even pull out now because we'll completely destroy that country. Thanks Bush, you rock. [sarcasm to the highest degree] 



I have to go do some homework. 


Bye-Bye, 
Bluebell